Tuesday, August 4, 2009
i don't know why for the pass few days i've been feeling restless..
i've not been me..
always thinking of FAMILY..
FRIENDS..
SCHOOL...
MY LIFE...
i don't know if i'll be able to achieve my dreams..
FAMILY => soon it will be fasting month.. i'm looking forward to it.. it's a month where i really feel at ease.. don't ask me why.. haha!
after that it will be HARI RAYA.. for now i feel like it's useless.. will i be able to meet my cousins like the past few years? if we do, will we be able to communicate with each other or will we be like STRANGERS.. It's no use seeking for forgiveness when u, urself know that u are doing it just for the sake of doing it.. sometimes i just wonder what do they see in my family.. we are not rich.. we always kept to ourself.. we mind our own business.. we don't go around telling the whole world of what we saw.. ur kids going out with their partners, we just kept quiet.. i think from now on i'll be just like them.. i don't fucking care even if u bribe me to keep it a secret..
FRIENDS => I MISS ALL OF U!! especially those who regards me as their friend. hehe.. as for my poly friends, thanks for being there for me guys.. u shld know who u are.. i just need to find some time to spend with all of u.. sorry if when i meet u all, i disturb, i misbehave.. i may seem happy go lucky... but actually i just can't bare to say gOodbye when we went our separate ways.. i'll hold back my tears and put on a wide smile.. :) to whom it may concern, i've tried my very best to accept your the other half.. but everytime when he's with us, there's always something that he did makes me mad.. even the slightest thing.. but don't worry i'll always pray for ur happiness and may god bless ur relationship with him.. :)
SCHOOL => it SUCKS! and i mean it.. i know i've been always on MC.. i've tried to force myself to go to school but it didn't turn out well.. i realised right now i'm much more active with my outside activities rather than my school activities.. maybe it's just the lecturers or the school system that sucks.. haha! right now there's one module that i don't know if i can make it through.. still wondering will i be able to graduate as planned..if no, i'll take things slowly and think positive..
MY LIFE => been EMO-ing alot.. u know what i wanna do now?? i feel like going on a cruise.. for as long as i like.. i just wanna be away.. away from everything.................
N my EMO LOVE
3:35:00 PM
